momentos que nos llenan...

Today was my last day of community service... I never thought that I was gonna miss it so much. After meeting amazing people through it, it´s so hard to think about not seeing them anymore.
I spent three semesters going to Allen Elementary Schools in Siloam Springs... I learned so many things there. Those kids do not have idea how much they impacted my life. They made me laugh and reminded me that life is all about enjoying TODAY.
It was so hard today to say good bye to my kids... especially Michelle and Rudy. Those kids were the reason why I could get up so early in the morning. I knew that after spending time with them I would end up with a smile in my face.
I loved to read with Rudy, he is a first grader. He is always talking and sharing his thoughts. He cannot stay still. Every time he reads he needs to add "special effects" to the story, and every time he writes he comes up with the most crazy and funny ideas. I would never forget the time he was writing a story about a castle and a dragon, and he told me that I was the "king" of the castle. There are so many memories and good things that Rudy taught me. Even when he won´t remember me for long, I will always remember him.
Michelle is the sweetest girl I´ve ever known. Her smile and warming welcoming made me feel so special. I loved our conversations about life. She always enjoyed sharing stories about her life with me, and I enjoyed listening to them. Today, when I told her that it was my last day visiting the school, she asked me if I was gonna come next week. Then, I explained her that I would not come back at all, and that I was going home (Guatemala) for the summer. I thought she did not understand me, but after that she went to get a piece of paper and made me a beautiful thank you card!! it said: "I love you so mosh... thank you to red to my"... I need to admit it... it made me cry, and it was so hard to say good bye.
Maybe after some time, these kids will forget my name or who I was, but I will never forget them and the good lessons they taught me. They taught me to enjoy life, to laugh of my mistakes, to show love to a friend, and many things more.
I won´t miss getting up early in the morning every Tuesday and Thursday... but I will miss those little faces that cheered me up all the time.

PATIENCE

"he who is patient will have what he wants" 

PATIENCE is a very strong word. It challenges you to go against the idea of working hard until you get what you want. Sometimes it is better to give ourselves a time to rest and wait. Patience is not the same as laziness.

Somebody who is patient goes on with life even when the desired goals do not seem to be close. That person has the courage to keep walking even when it is dark, and there does not seem to be a clear path. A patient person is somebody that enjoys the journey they experienced to achieve something. 

I'm one of those people that wants to know what is going on. It's hard for me to let things just be. That's a lesson I've been learning for a long time. I'm sure I will continue learning it the rest of my life. My goal is to put my trust in God and let him be the one in control of my life. He has promised that His purpose for us is good, so there is not reason to doubt about the way He is going to direct our lives. 

Patience is a virtue that I wanna cultivate, it would be possible to achieve only if I put my faith in Him. 

Isaiah 40:31 
But those who wait on the LORD shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint.

... TO LOVE IS TO BE VULNERABLE

Ultimamente he estado aprendiendo mucho sobre lo que significa ser autentico. Cuando nos enfocamos en autenticidad basados en la imagen de Jesus aprendemos que su autenticidad estaba basada en amor.

Jesus amaba libremente sin esperar nada a cambio. Ese amor fue el que cambio al mundo y ha sido el mejor ejemplo de desprendimiento. Jesus decidio amar y de esa manera mostrar su vulnerabilidad ante la gente. Esa misma vulnerabilidad lo hacia fuerte y digno de admirar. El es el mejor ejemplo de autenticidad que podemos tener.

Al leer la frase de CS Lewis me recuerda que amar es una decision de cada individuo. No es facil, pero vale la pena. Cuando decidimos amar, nos arriesgamos a ser vulnerables. Creo que esta es una de las decisiones mas dificiles que tenemos que tomar. A nadie le gusta verse vulnerable. Todos quieren parecer fuertes e independientes, cuando la verdad es que debemos aceptar que no podemos vivir los unos sin los otros.

Tenemos que aprender a amar y estar dispuestos a correr el riesgo que esta decision implica. Yo he decidido seguir el ejemplo de Jesus... es un reto y una aventura que estoy segura nunca me arrepentire de haber experimentado.

Cada dia aprendere lo que significa amar... habran momentos buenos y no tan buenos... pero estoy segura que la experiencia valdra la pena.